When people questions your doing . . .

 Here's the context as to why I wrote this blog post: 

People around me have been asking me about what I am doing now, and of course, I told them that I am currently pursuing my doctorate degree. Well, to be fair, this has been my answers to those around since 4 years ago. But you know, it is not easy to pursue a PhD degree, and it's a long commitment and journey towards the research you want to do. So, these people around me that questions me, they always gave me these replies "how long more to go?", "you are still doing your PhD?", "when will you complete your PhD?", "If I am in your shoe, I would have given up on PhD long ago, but it's okay, you haven't given up because your parent is rich and you can afford to live without pay for this long.", "Are you sure this is what God have called you into?"

So, here are my thoughts. . .

In the past, I used to be really sad and hurt to hear these comments especially from friends and family that I thought they will support and understand my journey. I cried. I doubt myself. I talked to God. BUT, now, I came to the realization that there is no need for people to agree to the decision you made for your life. No one will actually agree to everything you do. But, you are accountable for your own decision, and you are the one who will bear the consequences for every decision you made. I came to realizations that I first had to prove to myself that I really wanted to do this PhD, and what others think doesn't matter so long I completed it. When I completed my PhD, it is when I can tell others I have completed it, and I have proven myself to this. I foresee that there will be people who will say things like this "you have finally completed your PhD", "is it worth the 5 years of your time to just complete this PhD?". Regardless of what these people may say, I think it is more important to focus on the end result, and you've proven to yourself you can do it. I truly believe that if you yourself are not convinced that you can complete this PhD research, then there is no point for telling people that you will complete your PhD. If you yourself can't see it, then no one is going to have faith in you. It first has to come from yourself that you can do all things you want in this world. Convinced yourself first, and the results will follow, and then people will see. 

I am grateful ultimately that I have found faith in Christ Jesus. Throughout my journey, I hold onto Him, the Perfecter of my faith. In Col. 1:27, it says "Christ in me, the hope of Glory". Whatever I hold onto, which is in this case, I hold to the hope that I will complete my PhD on time, I look towards Jesus Christ, my Lord, that the Glory will be manifested if I continue to trust and believe in Him. He cares for me more than anyone else can.

That's all for now.